Another thought on reality

Its unfortunate that when I sit down to put something here that nothing comes to mind. Yet ideas, thoughts and phrases come to mind at odd times and there lacks a means to record them. Any attempt to recover them usually ends in failure. The nature of one's ability to recall something thought is well fickle at best. One might be able to get a piece of it or something similar but not the same.

A random thought from the other night. As always it is in the vein of what is reality. Is the but a dream and is it worthwhile. Does one who is out of sync with reality, consensual  reality, accept this or embrace the ideal of solipsism. And if one where to do this and believe it to be true, then why create/dream this kind of reality to exist in. Or if it is not real and but a dream then what is there to stop one from doing whatever it is that they most desire to do. If everything is but a construct of ones own mind, it must be an impoverished mind if this is the best it can come up with.

But then again if it is not true and we are sharing reality. The collective mind is in serious need of help if this is all we could agree upon. Its made all the harder by are lack of awareness of each other. Not are everyday face we show the world but are essence. Its all the same, it all comes from one source and is driven by another. And we forget this. But we didnt have a say in our loss of memory for that was self imposed. If only so we could experience this world and each other as individuals. With the hope that at some point we would remember our origin. This of course is not easy with are love of our self alone.

Then again what if this reality was meant to be something different, something better. Though somewhere along the way it all went wrong. And not it will never reach its true potential. That work is being done to salvage what can be and then bring it all to an end. Maybe to try again or when all that is worthwhile is salvaged then everything can be rolled back up to the source.

There are so many way to view this and all hold something of interest. They may not all be right, there may not be one that is right. But at times some each hold a bit of what is true. Though it might take a lifetime or three to find all the strands and weave them together into a tapestry that holds the closest ideal of what the truth really is about this reality and us that are in it.

Although would this be a waste of time or not. This is after all a dream. This is not are true reality but a creation to aid us in our evolution. We slip back to that truth in death, we glimpse it in our dreams. Are true reality our home.

Almost every night before drifting off to sleep. The question comes, will I wake, do I want to? If I dont and this is but a dream I am going to wake from then what is there to fear. And though I may not want to sleep, one needs to. And every time one awakes it can be a little depressing. To still be in the dream, a dream where you dont truly belong to begin with. Its a difficult and uncomfortable thought. It brings to mind a question of to act or not to act. To act to actively end the dream or no to act and let it continue. That is a tough question to face. Then again this question is also one of the easiest to ignore/forget. Except in those moment before sleep, at least for me.