My Best Solace

By nature, I'm not an angry person. I'm typically a very nice, extremely stressed and wittily sarcastic person. I laugh at the stupidest things, and enjoy my time with my cats, lover, and close friends.

But every once in a while, my temper's fuse is lit, and then I'm a ticking time bomb.

It's those rare moments when event after event trigger my slow to start but quick to boil temper that I truly relish. The intense feeling of anger, of too much being piled onto my shoulders, the frustration of never feeling I do enough, the unfairness of the difficulties life's thrown my way over the years... All that anger and unjust actions against me for my entire existance, come bursting forth and no one can stop it.

At those times, I find a punching bag to lay into, or a garden in extra need of work, or I pick a verbal fight over something political to purge the anger on.

I'm more productive, more invigorated, just more. I can work off of anger very similarly to how I when my needs aren't being fulfilled.

However, that isn't the only benefit of the anger outage. There is also the fact that all my pent up emotions over many things over varying lengths of time are purged as well. I let it all go with my anger, very similarly to what I do when I'm releasing through my tears.

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